bored! o.O

hmm... the holidays feel kinda funny.. whenever i'm not out, i feel bored at home with nothing to do. when i'm out then i feel ok but still like it's not enough. haha. and i think i haven't accomplished much yet. ok, i've read two books: The Da Vinci Code and The Jungle Book. the da vinci code was ok. pretty nice thriller but unconvincing from my point of view. the Bible is much more believable. and the jungle book is not the Disney one, it's the novel by some Kipling guy. other than that i'm bored at home with nothing to do and nobody to talk to. everyone's either on holiday or busy with something. and i don't even know why i bother writing on this blog. it's like i'm writing a story to a wall. oh i know why, cos there's nothing else to do anws, except talk to myself haha. hi i-zack! lookin' good! okok.. gotta grow up. heh. hmm... at least later it'll be better.. think i'll go over to YC's at 3pm. then 3am liverpool playing porto. gotta win man. in my point of view, not for the champions league itself, but for benitez. rumours are that he'll be sacked by gillette and hicks. i'm pretty sure if he leaves we'll have to wait a few years at least to win the title. players will leave (especially the spanish ones like torres), the club will have to undergo more rebuilding cos it takes time for new managers to settle, etc etc.. so not looking too bright at the moment..
hmm.. all these and more have just contributed to a less-than-good post o-levels...
synod camp's coming too. how funny. first, i didn't want to go. ok then kana persuaded to go. then all of a sudden ur a group leader and have to go a day earlier than everyone else for a pre-camp kinda thing. oh well.. if ur given a job, it's ur responsibility and u gotta take it.. and u gotta do what u gotta do..

sometimes i don't even know why i bother. sometimes i do know why i bother but then again what's the use. u just get pushed away or pushed around. sometimes ur the best in the world and ur untouchable. sometimes ur the tiniest crumb on a piece of bread. (hey! that's a good one) ah well.. whatever.. sometimes i feel like beating someone to a pulp, but then again, i wouldn't have it in me. :S